i need a break from everything
Post: Day 10
hmmm today
i was stressing over quite a few things today
1. spanish presentation (which actually came out to be pretty good, so i’m happy about that)
2. chem quiz…
i thought i knew the information but with my luck i still couldn’t get 25/25. blah x_x. i probably should be happy with my grades, but just i want perfection? is that so bad?
other than that, i guess it was just another ordinary day.
i barley got to see her.
i installed window 7 for her…that took awhile. plus i wanted to make sure her computer was working well so i played around with her computer to have better performance. i also wanted her to have all her files on the computer so i tried to make it so that her files would be there when she got the computer back. i just couldn’t get to install microsoft office, but i gave her the download. she said it didn’t work though >.> i hope she realized all the work i put into her computer today…
i studied a lot today at the library. i for once pushed my homework to the side and studies instead, so here i am not at 1a.m. finish up my homework »
LOL
hmm what else…
well ms. levit pretty much OTL-ed to me today so that was pretty funny
IDT tomorrow. i hope it’s good. she’s in it so i’m lookin forward to that :)
ohhh and i’m one day closer to “the day”
so much stress.
save me.
Post: Day 9
today was wednesday
usually our free day to hang out…but she had a lot of work to do. i wanted her to do work so she doesn’t get overwhelmed with work to do at night.
so i pretty much spent the whole day helping jieun fix up her laptop. fail
i spent time with her while we were eating lunch. she seemed such at piece eating. i guess she enjoyed the food. no?
the rest of the day she was working. seemed so stress
i wish i could of done something for her, but i didn’t know what to do
i probably only know a fraction of what was going through her mind
i wanted to make her crack a smile, but nothing really worked
that’s not good…maybe i’m losing my touch. i hope not
i loved the way she dressed. it was really cute. the way i always wanted to see her get dressed, but i didn’t get to see her in the black peacoat. hopefully next time i’ll be able to see.
then i got home, she got home
we were wc-ing
i was doing my stuff and she was doing hers
but every time i looked up, she seemed so stressed
…to a point where she even started to cry
i hated to see her like this
i wish i could of just stopped time for her…
i wish she could enjoy life to the fullest instead of being subjected to writing these summer apps ><
maybe i should be more idealistic
just that…she means a lot to me. i always want to put a smile on that face of hers and keep it there. i want her to be constantly happy with no sad moments in her life. i want to protect her to the bad things life can throw at you…
i can try, can’t i? i will try…
i will succeed.
she will be happy.
she will have faith.
she will be loved.
she will be confident.
she will feel gorgeous.
i promise this for i will be watching over her.
Post: Day 8
stress is so overrated
why does it exist?
it eats me alive…
i wish i could just have a split second to just take a breather
i was happy no lit today:)
today was fun
i got to chill with lots of ppl like ashkim, dongyoun, yubin, jieun, april, paul, kunsoo, etc.
i guess that was my breather? better than nothing i guess
i felt like she didn’t want to be there though…
maybe i should of asked her what she wanted to do also…
i hope i didn’t force her to stay…
maybe i was being inconsiderate today
i think i made her get upset when i mentioned bout buy first drinks…
i need to watch what i say…
i’m stupid >.<
i hope she’s not mad at me…
and ugh…wtf!! i’m so pissed
it’s been like legit 2 months, i’ve called, e-mailed and all that shit and yet still no package
i’m really running out of patients waiting for this package! i want it to come and give it to her b/c i know it’ll make her happy…and that’s what i want
i want her to be happy
i can’t handle seeing her so stressed these days…
Post: Day 7
so once again i’m late on my daily posts
she must be mad at me by now…
…this is like my second or third time doing that »
sorry
hmm…
so yesterday was just another normal day
these days i’m having trouble sleeping at night and that just makes me that much more tired in school which is bad. i need to pay attention…
i’m another day closer to the test…
what do i do?
i sent a whole hour just talkin randomly to her
it was refreshing
i had fun.
Post: Day 6
today…
my day started out well…
i made breakfast:)
did school work…
then did other work x_x
as time clicks, i feel the pressure hitting me harder…
can i handle the stress?
i don’t think i can…
what do i do now?
how can i succeed if i don’t even believe in myself ><
everything just seems to be going downhill
stress from school…
stress from myself…
stress from life…
i wish my life was as fun as the lives of people you see on tv…
so jealous…
why do i sound so whiny?
i just need to suck it up like always…
Post: Day 5
hmmm today
today seemed like a blur
i felt like i didn’t do much…
i did some SAT stuff…
so stressed bout SAT’s b/c i want to get it done with
blah already my third time…i fail »
i had played today
i must say it was a good day for me
i was at the top of my game…but then cramps
fml!
that just tells you how much i don’t stretch ><
had “therapy” for it
i hope it feels better
…i wish i could stop hurting myself so i don’t worry her
…or i might not just tell her from this point on.
just adds more stress to her on top of all the stuff that’s goin on in her life right now
i feel bad she has to watch over me like a child…
Post: Day 4
so this is a late post.
i should of posted last night, but i wasn’t able to get near a comp all day
i know i should of, but i didn’t so i felt bad
sorry if that bothered her…
friday overall was a good day. didn’t have much to do
wasn’t overwhelming
i guess it’s just the usual. nothing exciting, but nothing dull
normal i guess some can say?
but then again, what is normal?
Post: Day 3
hmmm today was a typical day
nothing new…
i had extra time today to see her. i liked that a lot :)
i watched her do hw, she seemed to be so concentrated on her work, but at the same time so…peaceful? though she said she wasn’t
today was my aunt’s b-day! happy birthday!!
ate lots of food…food coma>.<
Post: Day 2
today was a good day
i got to spend time with her…
we had fun. at least i did. i hope she did also.
she seems stressed. i wish i can be there for her right now
but i know she’ll be alright. she has the power to get herself back on track
i believe in her.
